Worry

It's been quite a while since I've posted but thought I'd post about something that I've been consumed with this week.

I've really struggled to sleep and have been sitting up worried about a friend and his illness among other things and I've found the more I worry, the more I worry and the more neurotic I've become! If you allow yourself to worry to that extent, your mind feeds that worry and you worry some more!

Jesus knew what it was like to worry. One of the most important parts of the Easter story to me is the part before Jesus is arrested and He's in the garden of Gethsemane, praying. Luke records that it was like He was sweating drops of blood - that He was in that much agony and torment. He knew what was going to happen to Him and what it signified. He reminds us that we shouldn't worry because our Father loves us and looks after us; we have everything we need.

When worrying about others I seem to have made things worse and I definitely don't want to burden others with my worrying. In worrying I've tried to take control and tried to make sense of something that doesn't make sense. God only knows the answers and it requires a lot of trust to let go of worry and have faith that God knows what's best for us and knows what we need.

I really do want to 'count on His name' and trust that God knows what He's doing. Worrying is therefore ultimately useless.