I have struggled with this for a while now but have had no answers! I've been a Christian since I was 8 and remember talking to God with what I can only describe as a child-like faith. I love reading about God and love gaining knowledge in different areas of Christianity and in many ways I consider this worship; but I really feel that I lack that 'heart' knowledge. I know Jesus is alive and the facts all make sense but I rarely, if at all, have that experience of God that many talk about. I love reading the Bible but find prayer more difficult despite talking to God for ages when I was a kid. If only I could get that child-like quality back.
I know I need to spend more time in quiet prayer; listening rather than talking but I'm finding this increasingly difficult when my mind keeps wandering and I do too much. In typical Kelly fashion I have even read a book on listening to God - but can I do it? No!
What do people mean when they say they know Jesus is alive because they had a conversation with Him this morning?! Am I missing something or has God been talking to me all along? I believe that God does talk to me through sermons, the books I read, the Bible and people I meet and talk to but is this all there is?
Answers on a postcard please...
