Sunday, 20 March 2011

Priorities

I often joke with my husband about his job: he works at least 70 hours a week and it never seems to be good enough for the management team. Though he doesn't like this side of his job, he has got to the point where that's all there is for him; work defines him. He gets easily wound up about this as he has always wanted to change it; to change his prorities.

It seems in my joking that the roles have changed. I am now doing 70+ hours a week on my job and am still deemed not good enough. My husband has become the cook in the household and does more around the house now than he ever did and I am either leaving the house a mess or leaving it for him to do. Where did I go wrong?

I've really struggled to have quiet time with God for weeks (I've said it now) and my job defines me - they tell me I'm crap and I believe them. I wake up at 6 so have no time in the morning to pray and get home about 7 and do more work. Where is my time for God? Why am I having such a hard time? I think these go together; cause and effect.

The problem is I don't really know how to turn it around. I know I need to spend time with God, otherwise my hard day becomes even worse but spending less time on my work may mean I lose my job.

I will turn it around though and only God can help.

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